Reflections

With my birthday quickly approaching I have found myself doing a bit of self-reflection. Although it is not one of those monumental birthdays, it's close enough.

If you had asked me when I was in high school where I would be now, I would have said NewYork City, without missing a beat. It was my dream. To be in a tiny, over priced apartment living out my own scaled-down version of "Sex in the City". Now I see that, although I do enjoy visiting New York City, I am not sure if being a resident there would have suited me as well as I liked to think it would have. Now my younger sister, she's made to live in a city.

Along with living happily in New York, I would have told you that I was a college graduate. I did go to school, and have my Associates Degree, but I never made it to finishing my Bachelors. I had every intention to, but life got in the way. I keep telling myself I will finish one day and hopefully I will.

I am proud of where I am at in my life. I am happily married to a wonderful man and have a beautiful, healthy and happy daughter. I have been blessed with awsome friends, who I consider the family I have chosen. We are homeowners and I have a good job that I enjoy, despite not having that degree. It is just interesting for me to look back at the dreams and expectations I had for myself and compare them to reality. To dissect the choices that I made along the way and see where those decisions brought me.

"Our lives are defined by moments, especially the ones we never see coming"

Although I am not where I thought I would be, not living out those dreams of a 16 year old, I am living out a different set of dreams. Instead of thinking about the "What If's", I am thinking about the "What Nows" and instead of dreading my birthday I am thankful to be here to have one.